cleaning house.

I’m supposed to be cleaning my house right now, but decided to take advantage of my limited 2-handed typing time to do a quick update. My MIL’s siblings and parents are coming out this weekend, and one aunt & uncle are staying with us. It’ll be our first time having guests, besides my parents, since Grayson came. I’m trying not to stress too much about having a perfectly kept house (or at least MY idea of a perfectly kept house, which is probably much less strict than most people.) I try to embrace the idea of not caring, but it doesn’t work for me even though I remind myself that, when visiting other people’s homes, I NEVER judge them based on the home’s cleanliness; if anything, I feel more at home in a slightly unkempt place. I’m not sure why I feel the need to hold myself to a standard I wouldn’t expect of other people. Grr!

Gray is fighting his morning nap, as usual, and I am resisting the urge to just nurse him to sleep. He’s once again sitting as far forward in his swing as possible, but his head is beginning to nod and droop, so I think he’ll be giving in soon.

Last night was one of our funniest moments with him. It is an unbelievably joyful feeling to make this little person laugh so hard. It made me feel like the funniest person on earth. Later I tried to get him to laugh again, and he just looked at me deadpan and I swear he practically rolled his eyes. Way to bring me back down, Baby.

I’m toying with the idea of taking a class at the community college in the fall. Probably just online, but I still feel the need to further my education; I feel sick when I think of the education I turned my back on. I also really want to get back into writing… maybe a class setting would help get my juices flowing again.

Baby meltdown time. Here we go.